As I walked around the Western campus this past week on a beautiful afternoon, Nikon camera in hand in search of staff and students who would like to have their photo taken for a story in the paper, I glanced at all of the incoming freshmen and thought back to my time at Ferris as a freshman.
My, my. I have grown so much and times sure have changed.
Back then, I was very timid. I didn’t have a lot of confidence. Of course, the past year was a whirlwind of life changing, earth shattering events. I was the first person in my immediate family to attend a university. Neither of my parents attended a university, so I had no idea what to expect. It was all brand new to me. Fast forward five years, and things are vastly different, but they remain the same. I was working for the campus newspaper then, and I am now. The difference between then and now is I have a lot more confidence now.
Now, I don’t live in as much fear.
Now, I am more likely to speak up.
Now, I am not afraid to be myself.
On Tuesday, I will begin a new chapter in my life. In a way, I am starting all over again. It’s a clean slate.
The awesome thing about starting at a new school or a new career, is that you can reinvent yourself. I look back at my time as an undergrad and there are a lot of things I wish I would have done differently. For example, I wouldn’t have jumped into a relationship while feeling vulnerable and spent the remainder of my undergrad years living in a state of pretend happiness. I wouldn’t have spent so much time alone in my room. I would have taken more chances. I wouldn’t have taken life so seriously and would have pushed myself to get out of my comfort zone or leave the house when I didn’t feel like it.
It’s that old saying: “Live and learn.”
Although I’ll have a lot more responsibilities as a graduate student and only two years to enjoy life in Kalamazoo, (Unless I get a full-time job there, of course) I’m going to make the most of it. I’m not the person I was when I first began college. I’m still a college student, and I still have time. I even have time after I graduate from WMU. You always have time to do the things you want to do, and you always have time to start over.
This is part two, and I’m ready for it. It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it. Just like has been said time and time before: “Nothing worth having comes easy.” I can attest to that as being one of the truest
statements I’ve ever heard.
In the words of Regina Spektor from the opening theme song of Orange Is The New Black, “You’ve got time.” I’ve got time, we’ve all got time. Make the best of it.